Forced Attachments, Greed and Lust

Forcing someone to form “love” attachments to you is not something that is heard of in my homeworlds. This is conditional love, and I was born with unconditional love. I had the gift of being able to attach to someone and still anchor in unconditional love if we split apart.

But nowadays I feel like that would come across as unnatural and immature to some Terrans, to be able to have many intimate lovers and relationships even if I have deep emotional connections. They associate that with sluttiness and poor emotional conscience, or commitment issues.

Because you have a polygamistic mindset does not mean you have commitment issues. You can have two spouses and be equally intimate and in depth. Terrans feel that their identity and emotional needs or rights are easily stamped on if their crush or partners, or friends draw their attention on others, as their attachments and bonds feel threatened to be lost – they struggle abandoning the relationship and not the being themself. So I had to learn that envy is a set of social beliefs in their emotional translation.

This is because of the matrix, and abnormal. Before, I only thought of envy as being, cognitively, the notion that others have what you don’t, and feeling inferior. I mostly had a cognitive inner-standing of jealousy and envy. However, there is this energy in humanoids that they can’t handle and reject the notion of having too much partners at once, but some like it. It’s about emotional entanglement and playing on people’s hearts.

However, I did feel petty envy, and not the “I might lose my relationship” envy. Never that far. But mostly stuff like, perceiving some people as having privileges or gifts I don’t develop or have developed, and feeling disadvantaged.

Anyway, I know I was never human in nature.

So it’s natural I could never have totally innerstood the process on an affective level, as in, feeling that it is intrinsic to your original nature – but I could sense its energies. But my neuronal mind could not process or absorb the whole.

This is why I only date Starseeds if I ever spend a date with humanoids on Gaia.